Dancing Through Grief - The Night We Met // Lord Huron

Today, I have posted my second YouTube and dance video. It's a bittersweet feeling. In the video, I'm dancing to "The Night We Met" by Lord Huron. I've cried to the song numerous times, thinking about Brown Butter. I'd even started dancing to it while crying. So, I made a video dancing to it.

It's a truly vulnerable video for me. The quality may be a bit grainy, but my tears were certainly pouring out as I danced. I'm vulnerable, and the dancing is sloppy (for multiple reasons). However, my grief is something I want to share. I feel as though that's common amongst humans. We want to share our grief, anger, joy, and every other emotion with other people. I have my issues with social media and what the internet as a whole has become, but, with how disconnected we've become, I'm grateful to at least have some connection through the internet. Even when nobody sees what I post, it still feels nice to get it out there.

Since that first week without my cat, I'd found that dancing seemed to help me. It didn't help me feel better, rather, it helped me feel connected to my body. Every time I would dance, I'd cry, but I'd keep dancing. I can't explain it well. But there's a reason why movement such as dancing is such an important part of many cultures and indigenous religions. 

This specific song hits me. I'm not sure if the lyrics are meant to refer to a break up or a deceased loved one. 

But for me, this song is Brutter pawing at me in the morning so I can open the sleeping bag and let her in.

Pinky and I laughing so hard we can barely walk as we hurry away from a friend's campsite we'd just booby-trapped.

Jimbo and I playing spoons while busking because we're the only ones in the group who can't play an actual instrument.

Waking up in the morning at my grandmother's house as a child and not feeling anxious to be awake.

Everything and everyone that's gone. Every future that can never come to be.

Hopefully this doesn't get taken down for copyright. It's just a dance video, I don't monetize my videos, so it's not like I could even profit off of it. There are loads of other dance videos using the song, so, here's to hoping, lol.