Chasing Trains

 Sometimes I wish I wasn't here, 

Wander around, then disappear, 

I keep on talking, I keep on falling in my sleep, 

I keep on bleeding, blood is seeping into my dreams, 

Don't wanna feel no more, 

Don't wanna be who I was before, 

I came so far, I broke my heart to build myself, 

But I'm still just pieces sitting on a dusty shelf, 

Now I'm chasing trains and losing sleep, 

Found a love I couldn't keep, 

And watching the stars as I slip away, 

Never seen this town before, 

But there's one thing I know for sure, 

Her song'll lead me back to the rails again, 

I don't know what I'm living for, 

Really wish I could close this door, 

My hope is shaking, I'm losing faith in this life, 

Cause I'm messing up everything I was gonna do right, 

Now I'm covered in dirt and soot, 

Tripping over my own foot, 

Trying to chase down that double stack, 

Uncertainty's filling me with fear, 

Steel dragon get me outta here, 

Take me where they've never seen my face before, 

I never had much going for me, 

I seem to let down everybody, 

So let this train take away my body, 

I'm chasing trains and falling apart, 

But at least I got a new start, 

Maybe I'll find another reason to live, 

Cause I know that I've still got so much more to give.