Melancholy & Missing Lighters

 I had been avoiding talking about this because of how greatly it has left me shaken. But I'm beginning to feel ready to discuss it. Truthfully, I had some hint of a warning before Brutter's death. It was of a supernatural nature, though. So, whether or not you believe in this sort of occurrence, please let my tragedy stand as a cautionary reminder to take the omens you are shown with a little more urgency.  I don't discuss my connection with nature spirits very often on here, or anywhere online, or even with the people I am close to. It is a very personal experience, between myself and the spirits (I'll refer to them as "gods" sometimes, however, I'm referring to the same beings). But to make it clear, yes, in the events I am about to recount, I spoke to a lake and I heard them speak to me. Gichi Gami first spoke to me the first time I'd touched their waters. It was a pleasant meeting, albeit, a tense one. The lake felt like they were holding back, ke...

 I once again am late to posting about another video upload. Now, one may ask themselves, why would she post about video on a blog that nobody reads? Or how did I end up on the ancient side of the internet? Or even, where do squirrels go during hurricanes? I can only answer the first question. I simply like to maintain something of an archival on my blog of my works. This includes, of course, my videos. Really though, I should probably keep the videos themselves on here as well. I think that's what I'll do, yes, just in case they're taken down from YouTube for some reason or another. They're by no means exemplary demonstrations of the art of dance, but I'm pretty proud of myself for actually making videos of something I love. It's taken me years to work up the nerve to even attempt to record myself dancing. In other news, living day-by-day is still rough. I'm still working with little to no desire to continue living. Dancing and singing gives me something to...

The air is cooler, the light wind singing with distant voices, and leaves are beginning to shower down. Autumn has arrived and so has October. As I've already said, I will not be doing anything for this month on the blog. I have, however, been pondering the question many people seem to be asking themselves: why does Halloween feel less magical? There are plenty of videos and articles discussing the depressing reality of adulthood, the lack of enthusiasm by society as a whole, and even the lack of any real community to actually celebrate with. From my position, there's not much I can do to fix it. But the one thing that has helped me reconnect a bit with that old secure and magical feeling is watching Halloween specials and Halloween/autumn themed movies. So, I've pieced together a playlist of Halloween specials and movies that I enjoy. I've also included loads of episodes of R.L. Stine's The Haunting Hour (I'm still adding new ones. Apparently, I am not caught u...